me wonders…

what love is, does it makes you feel all queasy and uneasy? does it hurt when it changes to hate and anger? feels like you wanna strangle her? isn’t it weird and absurd? when you feel someone’s life is in danger? when your loved one was once a stranger? does it bring you to another realm, too colorful to describe, too wonderful to comprehend? sometimes me wonders… why is it so hard to please someone when you try? and how easily you attract the ones you never did. In the end, they turn out to be the ones you never fancied.

t h e        e n d .

inspyred

here’s to the semi-mysterious “girl in green” :

 

 

Girl in green,

looked so serene

Girl in green,

why are you so mean?

 

Saw you at the mrt

thought you were cool

but then again it might be

I was feeling like a fool

 

You didn’t returned my glances

between the aunties and uncles

you did not even look

while I was with my book

 

oh girl in green

the one so pristine

oh why do I care?

maybe coz you are so fair?

 

you seemed delicate and petite

like a porceline doll

the dress you wore was neat

though you weren’t that tall

 

oh girl in green

you are so mean,

you left me at yishun

almost made me swoon

 

girl in green

such a sweet thing

made me smile and grin

hey wait a minute, is that a ring??

 

KeRja KiLLs!

remember the time, we thought was wrong!

when we were young,

a child, crying and sulking

so impatient, always barking!?

just can’t wait to grow, ’tis so not cool!

wondering why is the world so cruel,

 

then came the teenage years, yes we grew!

where everything is so new,

and experiencing feelings overflow,

those tantrums we all love to throw,

 

then there’s early adolescence, real beauty!

where we gain a glimpse of maturity,

and thought it was foresight,

but in reality,

we were blinded, ~yeah right!

 

enter adulthood, oh bother!

where you sometimes wonder…

why working is a pain,

and you can’t help but be in vain,

 

 

 

 

- by the untalented Mr PessimistiK Peon.

typed 0o:o7, 5th September 2oo6 (it sux, i know!)

you melayu?.

Apakah ertinya melayu?, adakah ia bangsa? budaya dan adat resam tradisi? bahasa? dan samakah melayu dahulu dengan melayu sekarang?

sebuah artikel dari RSI Melayu. (Radio Singapura Internasional)

Kalau ditanya orang, saya lebih suka membangga diri (dengan cara yang halal lah!) dengan dianggap sebagai “muslim” lebih dari “melayu“. Agama (atau lebih tepat lagi, cara kehidupan) memainkan peranan yang lebih menyeluruh bagi saya dari bangsa, ia ‘tak luput dek hujan tak lekang dek panas’. -hanya sekadar pendapat.

sebuah puisi dipetik dari laman web niknazmi.com,

“Melayu

oleh Usman Awang

Melayu itu orang yang bijaksana
Nakalnya bersulam jenaka
Budi bahasanya tidak terkira
Kurang ajarnya tetap santun
Jika menipu pun masih bersopan
Bila mengampu bijak beralas tangan.

Melayu itu berani jika bersalah
Kecut takut kerana benar,
Janji simpan di perut
Selalu pecah di mulut,
Biar mati adat
Jangan mati anak.”

.rindu ayah.

aku teringat akan…

kenangan lama, zaman 8o-an.

Selang beberapa hari yang lalu, seorang teman rapat bertanya : “eh, kau pernah naik kuda tak?” Aku dengan selamba dan spontan sambil melempar senyuman separuh ikhlas : “pernah, time kecik-kecik dulu, kat Zoo!”. Ternyata bukan jawapan yang diharapkan temanku, dikala kita di rantauan yang memang antara adat disini menunggang kuda ala-“horseback riding“.

Bila dah masuk bilik, teringat pula akan kenangan zaman kanak-kanakku. Waktu di Zoo, bila ditemani ayahku yang tercinta, juga adikku yang kusayangi. Entah apa jenis tunggangan yang kita sama-sama naiki, tapi yang penting, perasaan itu secara perlahan-lahan menyelinap terus di kalbuku…

Masih ingat lagi aku ketika ayahku menyoalku “nak naik ni?” sambil menuding jarinya ke arah binatang yang bakal kunaiki. Aku kurang pasti dan tak berasa ghairah langsung, tapi yang aku ingat, ayah terus mengangkat aku dan serahkan pada tangan penjaga haiwan, yang memang tugasnya melayan karenah orang ramai, lalu dapatku melihat ayahku berdiri melangkah kebelakang, tersenyum memerhatikan aku sambil menungguku.

Perasaan debar bercampur pelik menunggang seekor binatang yang seringkali kita lihat di kaca TV bersama keluarga, berubah menjadi seronok, dan ingat juga aku betapa bangganya aku di atas tungganganku yang tinggi (unta mungkin?) dan berterima kasih pada ayahku (meskipun aku terlalu muda untuk menghargainya) kerana sudi membawaku bersama adikku ke Zoo. Mungkin ekspresi aku tak seiring hatiku setelah selamat di pangkuan ayah, tapi yang pasti, aku tersenyum lebar…

Aku harap ayah pun suka.

pearl jammin’ ! for serious rockers only.

first two Pearl Jam songs i remember listening to were "Daughter" & "Elderly Woman Behind the Counter in a Small Town"

first Pearl Jam album i enjoyed playing and replaying *and still love listening to* : "No Code" -my brother's cassette

Pearl Jam is a cool old group unlike those new *Nu?* young kiddie bands, they lasted longer, rock harder, and have more meaningful lyrix! and are much way cooler…

webcast live performance by them from their new album :

Some of my favourite trax : *fast to slow tracks*

Severed Hand    Rockin' !! – "u'll see dragons after 3 or 4… i said yeahh!!"

Unemployable – "i seen the light….i'm scared alive… "

Gone                My fav song of their latest album….

Present Tense   From "No Code" – "makes much more sense to live… in the present tense."

the number of the beast !

it's 666, (6th of June, 2oo6) also known as (the biblical) number of the beast!

what the "neraka" is gonna happen? here you go :

Record number of marriages registered on o6-o6-o6 – in Singapore.
Malaysians hope 666 weddings bring luck – Malaysia.
Expectant mothers dont want babies born on 666 – United States of America.
Devil theories spread across internet on '666'- United States of America.
666: Alarmed by tomorrow's date? – United States of America.
Dutch churches join in 666 prayer marathon – Netherlands.

p.A.ku! ala mesir…

Peduli Apa aKU!….

aku tak ada masa nak tunggu… tak payah lah beratur, pergi aje kat depan pastu mintak/bayar apa yang patut

aku tahu aku dapat banyak duit…

aku tahu kalau bawak kereta terlajak, apa-apa hal aku boleh gostan? / go stun? / ghost tahan?

aku tahu aku lagi bagus dari engkau tu pasal aku bebual kuat-kuat LAH!

aku tahu aku ada kuasa nak tentukan berapa lif boleh berfungsi pada masa-masa tertentu

aku tahu akulah betul, engkau selalu salah walaupun kau hampir betul dan kadang-kadang betul

aku tahu aku dah malas nak layan karenah engkau…

the beginning.

in the beginning…

there were hidden thoughts, safely kept within the inner depths of one's mind. In a celebration to reveal those valuable (to those particular individuals of course) thoughts/fantasies/imaginations/etc…, this blogsite exists.

Here you can find some excerpts and glimpses of those who wish to jot down their experiences and record those memories online lest they might somehow sometime eventually fade away.

greetings, and enjoy…